I am there, but you don’t see me.
You do not see the pain in my eyes, or feel my loneliness when I am ignored.
I am invisible to you…
When the phonecall had come Amy had been shopping, she’d collapsed to the floor, the eggs slipping from her hand; crashing to the ground in a melee of egg shell, whites and yolks.
It wasn’t that the call had been completely unexpected, after all her mother’s death had been a long time coming; it was more the wave of relief that drifted over her that had caused the most surprise.
A woman shopper had been the first to help, followed quickly by one of the store attendants who called for some paper towel and a ‘Caution – Wet Floor’ sign. Later this scene would make Amy laugh as she told her husband what had happened.
She knew that she would have no choice now but to return to Filbert Street.
The kindly shopper had escorted her to the store cafe where a cup of steaming sweet tea was placed in front of her. Amy smiled and cupped her hands around the mug to stop them from shaking, she was determined not to cry.
Amy had done well for herself, she was unrecognisable from the 16 year old girl who had left home one crisp Autumn day in 1999, broken and alone.
She was living in a hostel in Leeds when Big Ben chimed in the new millennium and it was another 7 years before she’d gone back to visit her mum, by that time she’d graduated from university and was teaching. Amy had met David the year before and two years later they married, Amy did not invite her mum to the wedding.
She could still smell the rancid air that filled the house, a cocktail of cigarette smoke, over flowing ashtrays, mouldy take-out trays and empty vodka bottles. She shuddered as she recalled shoplifting for food because her mother had spent all their money on fags and alcohol. She was surprised at how adept she had become at it, but she’d had to eat. How the other girls had laughed at her because her clothes were old and ill-fitting. When her periods started she’d had to rip up a couple of sheets to use, she’d got the idea from a book about the Victorians!
She had slipped through the system like water through a sieve and no one had cared, not her teachers nor the neighbours.
But now she was free…
The Earl’s Court was now in session. The Judge sat sternly in his chair, the veins in his forehead pulsating. The assizes had been broken and someone had to pay.
The Seven Sisters sat without conviction whilst the Black Friars mumbled incoherent incantations up in the gallery. In the dock stood Lady Highbury, her head held high; the Prince Regent looked on helplessly.
Lady Thames smiled to herself as the Angel stepped towards the witness box, after all it didn’t matter who was guilty as long as someone took the blame…
Local history books tell us the railway had been built sometime in the 1800s to ferry the wealthy from their city dwellings to their country estates.
The local library in Woodstown proudly displays sepia photographs of a thriving, bustling town built around the railway station, but no one knows for certain when or why it closed down. One day the trains just stopped arriving!
Gradually nature swallowed up the 10 miles of abandoned track. Where once monsters of steam had battled their way through open valleys, the deer now ran free.
People still talk about the railway in its heyday, oblivious to the fact that the station was demolished long before any of them were born. The signal box sits in ruins, hidden in amongst the trees its windows smashed and the wood rotten with mildew.
But people in this town are nostalgic and they all have a story about the railway…
I haven’t written a post in almost a week as I’ve been feeling really poorly and had trouble stringing a coherent sentence together. I’m not completely back on top form as could easily fall asleep (it’s only 1:45pm in the UK), but I’ve really missed our little community and have been annoyed with myself for not being able to write anything.
I apologise now for any grammatical errors or inconsistencies that may annoy fellow writers but as I say my head is still a little fuzzy but I think giving my mind something to focus on may help my blocked nose…
I hope you enjoy it and be kind to a poorly fellow writer 😉
We all assume that we know our homes like the back of our hands. The nooks and crannies, the night time moans and groans that as children scared us, but we now find comforting and familiar. We walk carefree through our homes in the dark safe in the knowledge that the shadows are our friends and the creaking of the stairs its way of communicating with us.
But what if things changed! What if you woke up one night and you felt the shadows were watching and taunting you and the creaking floorboards mocking every tentative step you made, how would you feel then?
I’m huddled on the sofa, home alone. The power’s been out since 8pm and the only light comes from the gentle flicker of the candles dotted around the room and the faint glow from my laptop. I’ve tried calling my husband a few times, but he’s not picking up and I just get his answerphone, I’ve left a dozen messages already, I can’t call anymore though because I need to conserve the diminishing life of my phone – I’ve no way of charging it.
I don’t normally scare easily, I’m used to my own company and can entertain myself even during a power cut, but tonight is different, it feels different, the house feels different. Outside it’s pitch, I can’t even see the tree line 100 meters from the house. I locked and bolted all the doors and windows like I do every night before I went to bed at 10 pm.
I’m not sure what woke me up, but I suddenly felt an icy chill as though a window had been opened. I found the latch on the bathroom window loose, Jerry must have opened it before he left, he’s always complaining about the condensation in there. Maybe I turned too quickly as I left the bathroom but I am positive that I saw a movement in the shadows at the bottom of the stairs.
Here on the sofa, the creaks of the old pipes cut through me and chill me to the core. Every shadow hides a menace I know I am not strong enough to fight… And in the reflection on my laptop I can see its silhouette waiting…
Image credit: Andreas P. via Unsplash
Bikurgurl 100 Word Weekly Writing Challenge —Week 4
Fear spread throughout the forest like a cancer.
We felt the vibrations from the drilling machines long before we saw them.
The birds and creatures left their homes in the canopy.
The leviathan attacked at dawn and tore down trees, slaughtering everything in its path.
The river ran red with the blood of the innocent and the sun turned black from the suffocating smoke.
Those of us who were left ran for our lives.
The machines rested; peace, if but for a short time, was restored.
Thanks Bikurgurl for a rather challenging photo this week.
Change comes when you least expect it, grab it and enjoy.
My poor fiancé thought this was an autobiographical post about my life now, I had to put him write and explain that this was my life 3 years ago just before we met ❤